sweeeet like cand-ehhh. (8

SWEEEET LIKE CAND-EHHHH (8

what the bitch am I freaking talking about?

I fucking failed my Geography, I told you, I was sure I was gonna fail. ): I'm THIS dumb. I can't help that I am okay. NO, I'm not putting myself down but even if I am, It's all true what I'm saying. I can't do it, I can't get out of the negative side and no matter what anyone says... I end up being right.

I'm a failure. What to do?

I'm actually just sneaking on mom's lappy while they're out cause she's got aerobics and Dad is sending Nigel to tuition. I'm all alone at home. (: Haven't fucking started on my chemistry. kjasdf! D: I don't wanna fail again. Argh shit.

POA was kinda hard, the three column shit. ): Ahfck, why couldn't I be more intelligent? This blows that I have a brain the size of a pea and a memory of 1 byte. Anyone wanna loan me money for an upgrade? O: SHIT!

8 more days and dad is off to the Philippines. I love it and there's like 16? or something more days till my day. I'm excited and at the same time wishing it won't come... at all.

Whenever I see Maznan, I have the habit of saying 'bitch', 'whore', 'slut' and today, Calvin went to scream with me. I love Calvin Jong. <3

*looks at Mili---*

Me: tea--

*Keng passes by teacher while Stephy sits beside me*

Me: OH MY GOD, Keng why are you so hot? D:

*Stephy looks at me and laughs*

Me: what? he is!

Steph: I dare you to tell him that.

Me: bah, KEEENNGGG! :D

*no answer*

Me: KEEEEEEEEEEENG!

*no answer, Tien looks at me*

Tien: what are you doing?

Me: Imma say he's hot! HOT LIKE THE SUN! :p

*Tien, Calvin and Steph laughs*

Steph: KENGGG ZHENNNG HAOOO!

*Keng looks*

Me: Why are you so hot?!

Keng: *pauses, looks up* define 'hot'?

*Me, Tien, Stephy & Calvin laugh*

He. Is. Sooooooo. hoooot! (((:

and nice and sweet and cute and intelligent and ugrh. Tien says he's hers. ):

I'm so in-like on and off with him but booshet.

Stephy thinks I like Jaime. wtf? (((((8

I don't, mmkay?

I took shit yesterday. If you know what I mean.

I'm out now, need to study Chem. ):

I don't need another failure. I wonder what dad will talk to me about since he found out about my Geography from mom. Please pray for me! (:0

sweet like can-dehh! (8

screw me over.

I don't care about being on hiatus now. I'll come and go as I please for awhile, ever since after the Geography test today which I'm pretty sure I FAILED, I'll take all the chances I can get on the internet. I'm sure that dad will take my phone away, so no facebook and twitter. My internet privileges are taken away too, I've mentioned this before but whatever.

My blogger is dead right now. Can't edit nor add photos so sorry. ): Just wanted to say this.

I can't take it anymore. I want to get out of this place, anywhere but here. Can't seem to trust nobody, can't seem to get things in my head straight. I need to find me, my way. I need.. something new. ): I hate feeling like crap.

And crap I am. I'm not putting me down. I'm just.. I don't know what I'm doing.

19 days till my day.
I miss my big brother. ):

Perfect lonely.

Life is to short for regrets.

So love the people who treat you right.

Forget those who didn't believe everything happens for a reason.

If you get a second chance, grab with both hands. If It changes your life,

Let it.

Nobody said life would be easy. They just promised ;

That it would be worth it.

Goodluck on exams!

I know I'm not suppose to be blogging but Saturday is my test 2 and I really won't be able to be online anywhere. Plus, it's not like I'm committing a crime here... I admit mom would kill me if she saw me using her laptop while she was out for her aerobics. OH don't laugh, she goes to the gym eeveryday! so what? Don't be so immature.

... Oh my, my dog is barking while she's sleeping? wtf?

Anyway! I wanted to blog about the lunch thing with the wavin' flag and choir peeps but I'm on mom's laptop and most of the pictures are on my phone. :p Next time, next time.

I don't trust some people in my life lately. I don't know if it's a bad thing but I just can't trust them anymore. It makes me feel bad saying this but it's the truth and shit like I always say, the TRUTH fucking hurts.

...honestly, I don't mind you telling me how you truly feel about me. It'll hurt but I'll understand. Don't be such a fucking vagina and brave up.

Moving on, HAPPY PUASA! :D I admit no one is really happy when they're doing puasa but remember that you do it for a reason. (: kay? I seriously need to get out now. BAHAHAHA, mom might catch me.

Last thing.

Happy Birthday Nico!

I love you cousin and I miss you so much. ):

Oh-three

Muizz owes duh vee chocolates! (:

and also people, I'm sick and tired of the lies and the pain.

kjdasfg

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Perfect Lonely.

cause I don't belong to anyone and nobody belongs to me.

I'm waiting for you.

break MY heart.

I like you but I don't want to. ):

Cause it's like wishing for something that won't happen. ):

fcklife.

I can't fucking take it anymore! D: I NEED to blog. Just this once, promise! I'm still on hiatus but seriously I can't tahan anymore, just sitting here in computer class makes me wanna go and blog. I'm super bored right now so-- yeh. (:

Nothing's been up lately, pretty much the same so yeh.

6th August.
My credit is gonna expire, NYAHAHAH! :3 I can probably ask dad to buy me credit this time.

8th August.
Is the CHMS 88th Anniversary, not that I care but yeah. I just wanted to say, my school is ooold! :p I'm so evil but no seriously, congratulations Chung Hwa!

9th August
This 9th we're gonna have a little preformers gathering at school, in Boon Pang hall but we're not sure if most of the guys are going cause it's at night. ): I wish everyone can go. I want to see pretty much everyone there, it's been long since we all gathered. (8 I miss them like shit.

Yeah, and the 25th dad is going to the Philippines. I need to make a list of things to buy but I don't trust my dad with clothes and stuff, so I chatted with my big brother and told him some of the things I wanted like new t-shirts (yes shirtSSSSS), 1 converse, 2 biiiiiiiiig donut keychain and 1 pacifier keychain. I know it's a long time till that day but still. I'm a very impatient person, kay? (8

Can XinZaii stop counting how many days are left till my birthday? Though I admit, I kinda am excited, KINDAAA. Huge difference.

I should stop now, I told her I would make a SHORT update! it ended up being a huge update. BWAHHAHA! And my friend. Please, chicken is fucking life! O:

I hugged Zimah yesterday and it felt good. :3 how can you be so cuuuuuuuuuuuute?

BWAH! )): I'm on fucking hiatus again.

P.S/ Katy Perry... is worth going lezo for. :3

Oh-Three!

ohmygoof, hiatus.

I'm not going through this again. I hate it when things get complicated. ):

Oh fucking hell, trials are on the 14th!

Alot of good things happened today. I think? I don't really have the time to blog since I'm on dad's laptop. My laptop isn't working so well and I just wanted to make a short update and tell you guys that I'm going on hiatus. You won't really miss me much, you see me everywhere you go. NYAHAHAH! :3

By the way, I love Vee's post at her blog. (': Seriously, none of the things I say make sense. Also for more info about today, go to XINZAII's blog. <3

I love the trio that went botak. Afy, Khairul & Aaron. ((:

This blog is officially on HIATUS!

I'm waiting for your reply. I bet you fell asleep lav.

Signing out until next time,

Oh-Three!

almost on hiatus.

Day 3- Your Parents

Dear Mom & Dad,

I've never hidden anything from you except about my love life and a few things. We'll get to that soon. I love you two so much for being there for me all the time, for loving me-- us. Kuya, Nigel and I are very lucky to have you guys as parents. We love you very much and we hope that you know that. I'm sorry for everything bad that I've done. ): I'm sorry for being a pain in the arse. For not being the daughter that you guys expected but I promise that I'll keep trying. )': I'm very sorry. I really am. Thank you for always trying to understand us and always being there.

I'm sorry for keeping so much secrets to you guys. ): Especially about my love life. I don't know why I keep them a secret, I guess I just don't like hurting you guys. I hope that someday you will understand why I did that or probably won't. And you'll actually be more hurt then. )))): I'm so sorry. I hope that you guys forgive me and I want you to know that you are both awesome parents. I love you two so much.

Love your daughter, Viel

I saw Karmina today. (: Made my fucking day! I miss you so much Karmina and I hope I can hug you more often. I'm sorry couldn't cheer you up with just one today. ): I'll see you soon, kay?

Happy Advance Birthday Hafidz! :D

You are OLDER than me!

Take Care always!

I suck at telling my parents how I feel. And telling the truth.

UGH, Assembly tomorrow. )))):

HIATUS soon.

I wanna kick ass, like Salt. :3

Booyah! It's August! ((:

I hope this month won't suck like the rest. ): I'm still waiting for September though and December! :3 I miss my big brother and he'll only get to come here on December.

It's Sunday and as usual we had our family day. (: I've been having so much band practices during Sunday today was one off day. So today mom and I watched Salt and it was friggin' awesome! Dad and Nigel didn't want to watch is so they just watched tekken... without me! )): I wanted to watch tekken cibaiiikiaaaaaaaa! BUT OH WELL!

Pretty much the whole day was about my family and I hanging out at the mall. (: That's why Sunday family day is awesome! :3 I had another dejavu. ): I didn't like it... but it changed when I slept in the car. whew!

I wanna be like Salt, I mean the way she kicks ass. :3

Angelina Jolie is kinda old, but still so smexy! (:

Me: she's like 45 I think and she still looks young! D:

Mom: why? DO I LOOK OLD?

Me: uh. yeah? NYAHAHAHAH! :p

Mom: No I don't.

Me: uh, yeah you do mom.

Mom: che! I'm not.

Me: :p

NYAHAHAHAH! I love you mommy!

I find it weird that you say those things to me. O: But I love you anyway man. (:

I wonder what the future will bring. :3

Are friendly kisses real? O:

VAMPIRES SUCK (not that they do. It's just a movie. :3)

wala sa mood para mag blog. (:

Oh-Three!