You're not gonna read the words right?
well, what can I say?
I have photos, lazy upload.
You know, I'm actually kinda liking the whole not going to school thing. I mean yeah, I miss my friends and I'm always bored as hell at home but it's kinda worth it. I'm having so much solitary time, thinking; yus, I have been thinking but no meditation lately.. I don't think I should do that, not until I calm my fucking negativity thoughts.
Anyway, I've been watching Veronica Mars. I watched the whole 3 season and I learnt quite a few things from the tv series.
- I learnt that the character and I are quite nosy, we don't like being curious and we will always try to figure out the truth.
- We both have "reputations", well obviously her reputation is much better and bigger than mine but I can't help but notice that.
- We both act all happy but inside we're hiding something.
- We have nutty personalities, bitchy but nice. "Melly" and stuff.
And other stuff you're not interested in, she's talented though and she has on/off different boyfriends every season. She's whoreible and yes, I am too but in a whole different way. What was I going to blog about today? I completely forgot, short-term memory loss remember. Uh, it was something about change. C'mon brain...
OH, I was thinking about it. I don't really have something one calls "serious problem", I'm not mental.. well I am but not literally, I'm not trying to get my parents attention (they give me enough k?), I don't need so much attention and shit. My point is I should stop being emu for a while, people have worst problems than I do, I guess I've been depressed and down cause of the shame and the feeling of disappointment but I can solve this "problem" by studying hard and stuff. I figured that emu-ing will have no effect.
From now on, I'm just gonna be anti-depressed though I must say.. I might wear emu/loner clothing for quite a period of time. I don't even know why I'm blogging about this, I guess as a reminder to myself. I want to make this change official. I'm gonna try to be happy, change but not change so much, be single and not care or like anyone for the moment. That's... that.
You don't care, it's okay. It's worth typing it all out though reading it again makes me think I don't make sense. bah, I don't keh. :))
For now, I don't exist. I need solitary but I'm around, talk to me when you want to.
vee.
