Only one

I hate people who judge, that's why I hate me cause I'm always judging.

It's Sunday, I don't have much things that I did today. I just did my homeworks, watched Gossip Girl with mom and had a One Tree Hill marathon. I also realized that I lost my earphones! Agh, I need new ones again, shit. I'm always losing stuff nowadays.


Yuh, that's pretty much the things that happened today. It's Monday tomorrow, I'll probably have one then.And I'm not really angry about it being Monday tomorrow because one, I'm staying for practice. two, I get to see.. yknow. three, cause I say so.

 I love this photo, I love the people in it, I love her, I love him, I love the photographer, I love the location, I love what we're doing, I hate me.

You see it's like this, I don't know if I love you and I don't know if what I feel is real. I don't know if it's just my brain being stupid again. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. I don't know what to do and how I'm gonna do it. I'm pretty messed up cause I pretty much don't know anything.

I don't know what I'm feeling and I don't know if it's worth it. I don't know anything at the moment but I don't know why either why I keep saying you're the one I want to marry and the one I want.

Yesterday I was asked 'why?' and I just said, because. I don't know how to answer any questions about you, I don't know why it has to be you and I don't know why it's you that makes me feel confused. I don't know why I haven't given up yet. I don't know if hoping for the impossible is good. I don't know why you're the only one now that makes me go crazy. It's been 5 months since then. It's been that long since I've been feeling like shit, like this. And all I can say is I DONT KNOW. :o

I only have one heart, one mind, one soul. Stop eating all of it away. But hear me out, you're the one I want to marry. Don't leave k?

So mom posted this in facebook today. I was like omgwtfnonononohowcanshewtflol! I screamed that seriously, no joke. She was laughing, laughing I tell you! Momma is so weird! D:


If you look at it, the first photo of the girl is actually me when I was 5 years old. That was my passport picture and the next one to it is also my passport picture. I have a bad teeth, then moving down, that's my primary 6 pictures. I'm so fot and my hair was shit! Whut? I have no sense of style okie? :p then the last one is my year 8 pictures. Spot the difference in all of the picture?

HAH! I don't know why I posted that. :p

Mirror was dirty. 

One more thing.
I don't have a childhood friend, I never had anyone to play with before. I only had my cousins when I was growing up. I didn't mind but I did however wanted a childhood friend. I have that dumb dream where I have a childhood friend and we'll grow up with each other and shiz. Then if it was a guy, I'd end up like the movies where the two bestfriends get married with each other. Nah, I don't have a childhood friend. Sadly.


Then I studied in Chung Hwa, I started at Primary 2. I thought I wouldn't want to be friends with any of the people there. Yeah, I was a bitch even then. :p As I grew up there, I considered friends in Primary 2 as childhood friends.

"She" has been my friend since primary 2. She's my bestfriend, my soul sister and the one I trust and the one I tell EVERYTHING to.I hide stuff sometimes, I admit that but I do that cause I have good reasons. I tell her that I'll slap her if she emo's which I would but not always. 

My point is, she'll never get that it hurts when she doesn't tell me the things she should and could. 
I haven't talked to you in 1 day and I'm like wtf? -.-

Got this from Em Shams blog, I hope she won't get angry! D:
the thing about girls. - guys should watch like for shiz.
Reblogged from her Em Shams.
I don't care if I'm not pretty.


yes, don't leave.


vee.

just gonna stand there

I sell heart condoms just in case someone fucks with your feelings. 

Today wasn't such a bad day, good news right? bad news though is I'm pretty sleep and half of the things I did today is a real blur to me, like fuck. I'll just blog out things I remember.

Talked to Z, I was like omgttmwtf at the things she told me. 

Had class and didn't feel sleepy!

I finally took photo of the thing Ty was asking me to do and everyone was supportive of it, nobody much in school knows what tumblr is. So it's safe to tell the people I took the photo with.

Stayed back for the teacher's day performance thing. 

{ I had fun Jackie, don't worry about anything. To much stress causes wrinkles you know? (: Sorry couldn't help you with anything too. }

Had a emo-pissed moment. -.-

Ate dinner with xinZaii and Sharon.

Chit-chatted about stuff. 

Then got free pizza! <3 Thanks to xinZaii's dad!

Went to tuition Dwight

Went home

Accidentally stepped on shit

tumbled

<3

Sorry, I'm so sleepy to even care about anything I just blogged. I'll just post pictures for today, edits soon.

I don't have much pictures of the practice. Some other time yeah? (: I'm off. here. 
reblog tomorrow or I come back latur.


you heard me, I love you.



vee.

short updates, updates.

BITCH!

I hate that I can't find a blogskin that suits me! D: It's taking me forever so I decided to stick to with this for now. -.- I'm sorry, I'm lazy and dumb like that wah! And Ty came up with my link. 'veetahgen' as in the drink vitagen. :p

So I'm sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy with stuff and I've been trying to finish reading my 'Eat, Pray, Love' book BUT I as usual, have no even fucking touch the book ever since school re-opened. WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU right? :o yeah, I'm dumb like that. (:

I can't update much on what's been happening, so lemme break it down for you. I have a feeling that X has a little feeling for H. S broke it with that dip shit of a guy X. I hate E. I'm working now, I don't like my work but I earn money. That's good enough for me. We're preforming 'Glee' for teacher's day annnnnd I (meaning S and me) joined prefect committee. A and I don't talk. 

Yuh, that's pretty much it. You don't get it? Neither do I.

Oh and I love you still K. I don't know why, I just do.

Something very funny about this picture.

Sorry, I forgot to rotate the picture and now, I'm... lazy. :3

HAH! Zimah so cute. xinZaii so shuai. :p

There's a few more days till xinZaii's birthday. (:

*evil laughs* gotta love it.

Z has sexy hair & I love mooncakes. Thanks xinZaii!

updates again soon.

vee.

friends that care.

The funny thing is, nobody really knows how much anybody is hurting. We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken, and we wouldn't even know.
Mom: Why don't you just date Viel, Chok? I don't mind!

Me: HAH! what the--?

Chok: HAHA! yeaaaah sure, like Viel would date a guy like me!

Mom: what?

Me: When did I say that? You're making me sound like a bad person Chok! D: *hits shoulder*

Chok: What? it's true, you wouldn't go out with a guy like me!

(The conversation went SOMETHING like this, most of the words-- I don't re-call)

Do you get what I'm trying to say? If my mom said this to any guy ; the guy that would go out with pretty girls, would only date pretty girls and hang out with pretty girls, they would've gone and said 'ew, she's not my type Auntie' or 'Sure Auntie, over my dead body' and so on but Chok didn't say that. He made it seem sincere and caring. (': He made it seem like I was like any kind of girl out there. He said that, instead of going 'Auntie, I don't date She-males! HAHAHA'.

They should make more guys like Chok. The kind of friend that wouldn't put another friend down. ): I'm gonna miss him when he graduates this year. King of comedy, Asian Chonny and a good friend. Is it so bad to wish for him to not to graduate? It's so selfish of me, I'll shut up now.

and btw Chok, I'd go out with you but we both know you have a *ahem*

vee.

First love

Perhaps nothing is ever quite as painful as getting over your first love. It's not just any old break-up; this is the boy/girl who taught you what it means to fall in love. You thought you'd spend the rest of your lives together. You have loads of jokes and memories of the time you spent together. Now that it's over, you're scared to death you'll never find anyone to ever replace them.

I can't bring myself to tell you the story about what happened today. :\

soon. will change blogskin or info abit too.

vee.

save me.

In the biblical creation story the Creator, having formed the first person, immediately declared our social character: "It is not good that man should be alone." Most of us, most of the time, would rather be with anyone than be alone. And when we compare being with anyone to being with a real friend, there is no comparison. The reasons are endless. Seventeenth-century philosopher Francis Bacon noted two tremendously positive effects of friendship: "It redoubles joys and cuts grief in half." How true. Friends make the ordinary running errands or eating lunch, for example, extraordinarily fun. And good friends ease our pain and lighten our heavy load. They also strengthen us, nurture us, and help us grow. And without our knowing, they can even save our lives. Literally.

There's exciting news about having a kindred spirit these days. Not only are friends good for the soul but for the body as well. Friends help us ward off depression, boost our immune system, lower our cholesterol, increase the odds of surviving with coronary disease, and keep stress hormones in check. Half-dozen top medical studies now bear this out. Their findings didn't seem to be influenced by other conditions or habits such as obesity, smoking, drinking, or exercise. The thing that mattered most was friends. What's more, research is showing that you can extend your life expectancy by having the right kinds of friends.

This brings us to a central issue. What are the "right kinds" of friends? What makes a friend "good"? What are "the real" friends? On the other end is "know-it-all friend" who mothers and smothers with unwanted advice but never asks for our input. In short, friends cannot be your family, they can't be your project, they can't be your psychiatrist. But they can be your friends, which is plenty.

Real friends are few. The few real friends we enjoy generally come in one of two forms, both desirable and equally delightful.

vee.

not at the moment.

HE-HE-HE.

At computer lab, that's it.

Lepaking with Steph & xinZaii.

I have no update at the moment, things are quite complicated with my life.

I'll be back with updates, kay?

Just not at the moment. ):

I'm sorry Ty.

vee.