December evaluation

Hi everyone or not, 


I am finally here, blogging. I've been wanting to blog for the past few days but you know.. laziness always manages to overpower me and whenever I'm not lazy-- I'm off typing my novel which will remain a secret to the world or just Brunei. But anyway, like I said-- Finally here. So 2011 ends today and 2012 begins tomorrow. It's been a long run hasn't it? Anyway here are my pending updates, it's been in drafts for a long time.


Christmas Eve.

The food at first.

waiting for food, played around lol

watched my cousins video

baby Josh trolling while his mom and Grandma were talking

dad and mom teaching my uncle HTC stuff

Playing PS3

now playing psp

trying on the 3D tv

we were really high, you can tell with our face right

haha this part, Nico suddenly pushed his face forward

and it was really hot so our hair was getting oily and we were madly sweating

our really high faces

and Nico eventually evolved from high to psychotic

Nico's mom and my mom looking at each other's nail art

 

dad and grandma talking

after eating and waiting for midnight, we played "start the party"

see, t'was really fun

mom and Nico

we had so much technologies and food so yeah

posing for the camera lol

no seriously

the only time you see him covering his ears is when we start playing Resident Evil

borrowed headband to keep my bangs from making me look like I hadn't showered in 214587 years

We went home at about 2am? Slept at around 3 plus-- mom, my older brother and I sat up talking about personal stuffs. Like girlfriends and stuff like that. Anyway, t'was a good night.

Christmas.

baby Josh <3

Kathy and Josh

Surprised that there were lots of people there, including Rakin--

anyway, gossip girls lolololol

guitar hero on XBOX

my older brother and my cousin look kind of kind of kind of the same

preparing to take a dip at the pool

Josh and Grandma

vaining at the lobby lolol

my hair always looks good when his doesn't

see, suddenly my bangs asdfghjkl itself

can I hear anybody say "sexy back?"

Auntie Edith

Grandma and Auntie, wahseh

Nico, Kim, Kat, Kimmy and My older brother didn't swim the first day because... we pemalas

Karen, guess how old?

10? NO

11? NO

12? NO

15? Yes.

big boys bullying small boy

even Grandma swam

went up for awhile cause I was bored, told my brother to pose as I "wrap" him up with the red thing there

act cool nia

MEHEHEHEHEEHEHEH THIS PHOTO SO PANI

le cousins

Nigel, 13. Josh, 12. Karen, 15.

Then yeah, the night consisted of the elders playing Mahjong and doing adult stuff while the younger ones used laptops and psp and ps3 and xbox--- everyone slept at around midnight but our room didn't turn off the lights till 3am.

The day after.

lunch at some nearby restaurant

we were so lazy to walk or talk much

but after receiving food and free wifi, le bam-- everyone started talking

elders at the other table

Food there was really good and wifi was really fast. After that, I can't really remember-- my parents, siblings and I were suppose to watch Sherlock Holmes but we ended up sleeping till 6PM. So basically we were lazy to leave the house.

Things I got for Christmas: Ainol, Red Handbag, A book and Cash.

Christmas overall, was really good. December, not bad-- not bad at all.

Violated. loljk

So my cousin, Nico and I decided to go for a massage.

It was so good.

But I felt so damn violated.

loljk

It was good.

I just wanted to say it out. 

But if you guys need a massage, Distress is a good place to go. (both male & female)

HIGHLY RECOMMENDED

Ever family gathering.

Meet the "ever" family. We weren't complete but yeah. :)

Aaron

V-Anne

Big brother

Steph

yours truly and dad

Ivy and mom

There's....a very long story to this which shall be forever private

Eya, Steph, Uri and Sarah

Theo and Jesus impersonator loljk Arvy

reason to why he looks like that? "Cutting hair in the Philippines very expensive!"

Eya, Sarah and Uri

seriously serious

Sarah, moi and Uri

le mofo

The night was really long, full of laughter and awkward shiz but still an amazing night. I wish I could remember all of it but when we went over to coffee bean-- my pure chocolate had coffee, so now I'm like really sleepy. But maybe later, when I get up.. I'll blog it. Or not loljk

Anyway, happy new year's eve! <3

Updates.

Well hello~

So I have this sudden urge to blog...about what? Well pretty much everything that's in my head. 2 topics, 2 topics that won't be of any interest to you but if you're bored and you decide to scroll down and continue reading-- you have been warned

Topic #1 - Prom photos

Finally! The photos from the photographer has arrived. Not very satisfying-- not because I don't have nice shots but because some of the shots weren't very good. And I'm not trying to be mean or disregard that photographer (or photographers) but yes some of the photos weren't greatly shot. However, not all of them were "bad", some were really good photos but mom keeps going on and on about how she could find someone more professional and more sophisticating on taking the photos. Like Uncle Raul, he's a professional and worth $300. But nonetheless, the photos are 70% acceptable.

goes without saying, the 4 of us (Ed, S, Han and I) tried not to have awkward moments

I don't know why my legs were open and my arms are-

SEE.

Only photo I like of me but my teeth

Oh and this photo, I don't know why I like it-- I was scolding photographer for taking so much candid shots of me which he still gave anyway and I look like crap in all of them 

sweaty

This is another warning, you can still turn back while you still can.

Topic #2 - Christmas

Is in 4 days! Cousins, Grandma and Big brother is flying over from Philippines. I haven't seen my big brother for almost 2 years (mom and I were counting earlier today) and I don't know, I'm excited to see him. I'm happy that this year finally..we can spend Christmas as family. That half of the family are flying over. Mom and dad said we'll be spending Christmas in Holiday lodge....which will be kind of cool cause, I don't know it just is. 


So far I've gotten 3 presents from mom and dad; My red candy handbag, My Chicken soup for the Soul book (not a recipe book, just saying it out cause most people mistake it for a recipe book) and an Ainol Music Player. I wanted an iTouch but mom bought me the Ainol instead which I am okay with cause it still plays music AND allows me to store movies to watch. BUT I still want an iTouch cause... I want one.

Things I'm saving for

iTouch, Blue candy hand bag, flats, a new book to read and... I don't remember the rest, my list is outside and I'm lazy to move. ._.


Anyway, been waking up at 3am & 4am since the 16th for Misa De Gallo (Simbang Gabi) at Church. Mom said that if I go 9 days straight, god grants them a wish. Something like that, totally forgot how she said it but I'm not just going to church for that but to pray and ask for forgiveness before Christmas completely arrives.

Yup, that's pretty much my update or whatever you wanna call it. I has 3 other topics to share but that story for next time. Till then.

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16 days

As usual, I have no photos and no special news to announce but somehow I feel like I need to blog. Is that weird? Yeah. No not really but for me it is, like seriously.

My holiday, like I said in my previous post, was and still is doing quite good. I haven't been doing anything special or been hanging out with friends (cause I have no friends) l0ljaaaaahaaaykAaaayyyYYYyyYyy~  Reasons to as why I don't get as out is cause I'm dead boring and no one loves me. 0mg t0o0o0oo0tally kidding~ No but seriously, some friends have asked me out but I don't feel like I need to get out of the house or anything. Why? I don't know, really seriously don't know. I  have went out though and mostly with family and my sisters.

Though, I am in the mood for some Coffee Bean, who's with me? l0l

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Why have I been doing that? Tell me whyyyy~ l0l- that! ew, it's so poklen!

Okay totally back to serious blogging. The photographer that took the photos during prom is taking way too long, it's starting to get disappointing, no professional photographer takes this long to edit and do stuff with a photos but I shall keep calm and be patient because I trust the person who chose the photographers. But anyway 16 days till Christmas!

I love Christmas, it's like the best time of the year! Christmas for my whole family is a big deal but we rarely celebrate big, if you get what I mean. I don't know if I've mentioned it before but my older brother's coming and so are the rest of my cousins who are studying in the Philippines, grandma also decided to come over for Christmas. And I absolutely love it when she comes over for Christmas, she cooks the most amazing food ever. EVERRRRRR~ 

Spending Christmas at Holiday lodge, so I heard but that story is for another day. 

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Holiday mood

So hello,


I still have no photos because the photographer is still doing his thang sooooo sorry to disappoint you all (for those who actually bother to read the crap I blog out) lol. Anyway, my holiday has been going quite good. Not very good but not very bad-- I haven't gone out of the house since graduation night, lol I am not kidding right now. I feel more comfortable just staying home, getting up late, eating and watching tv. Yup


Though I do feel fatter and might have to do something about it real soon. No girl wants to rot and get fat at home. So yeah, no one is keeping in touch with me cause everyone is either busy or enjoying their holiday.. Forever alone, actually no Z and Nigguh tweet and text me from time to time so uh yeah


Every form 5 in twitter is like either out of the country, going out with their fellow classmates.. or should I say ex? Eh no. So weird. So yeah, meanwhile... XJ tweeted me and told me that she, stephy and Keng are going out on Monday with few other people to catch a movie or something. OH FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING SACRED. That really awkward moment when your friend tells you that he or she will  be going out with a few other friends and you're not invited. HAH but she did ask me, I just didn't feel like going out anymore cause... just because I'm lazy.


But I did go out once.. to watch Puss in Boots with my sister and parents but yeah... that was long ago. Oh and I'm still looking for work. I need to do something or I'll end up like a couch potato. -_____- but yeah,  Just wanted to update. :D

Hello December!

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So many words left unsaid

Just turn around and come back.

So as of yesterday, the seniors are no longer seniors and my batch are now the seniors. Does that make sense? I swear it made more sense when I said it in my head but now that I say it loudly, I'm just like "wut". But nehmind, if you don't get it, try to get it.

I have a feeling this post will be very long and will take awhile to do before officially publishing so yeah, I should begin right now.

Miri trip.

I don't have much photos.....yet because the 4 other journalist that came with me and the band have not uploaded any photos. I seriously regret not taking any photos but what to do, I was busy taking videos and my camera was like out of battery the whole time (no charger so yeah)


Overall, the 2 days 1 night trip was amazing. I didn't meet alot of people but I met just enough people to not regret going to Miri. People did however, add me in facebook even though they didn't know me. I think they were like "oh look, it's the girl with the video camera" or something. lol It would have been better to bring a senior journalist or someone my age (no offence to the ones who came with me) but they just sat around and were always feeling "tired" for no apparent reason. So in my opinion, they need to be sent to boot camp or something.


Yeah, on the evening that we left. That was the best part of the trip. People hugging, I think I started that hugging thing l0ljk.........or am I? No seriously because I hugged Jeremy (this really cute 13 year old who plays saxophone) and he hugged back real tight. It was so heartbreaking~


Did I mention how good the band is there? It makes me want to go back to band which I might consider doing since yeah, I miss playing in band. You can read HERE for a better blogpost and a few photos.

2011 Senior Prom.

big arms, man legs ergh and double chin. I will get rid of that next year- PROMISE

I actually woke up early just to prepare everything for the night. I bought the trophies, did the sache, the decorations, helped with putting the chocolates on the plates and everything else. I was so tired by the time it turned 3PM. I had to go here and there-- you guys are so lucky I love you all. HAHAHAHA After all that, I went to Anisah to do my make up and hair cause my mom was demanding it. I'll prolly do that next year because yeah... 


Again, not much photos here because I was very busy running around trying to make things go according to plan. So yeah. I really regret not taking photos during this event. :( Because everyone looked so good and everyone was taking photos and and and it would be the last time I'd see them wearing something so formal. Plus Pretty smile looked really good. Really good.

ASDFGHJKLHGFDSADFGHJGFDS REGRETS

But it's okay, I think the photographer took loads of photos which by the way hasn't been given to us yet. :< nyahhhh, angry viel is angry. No I'm kidding. Anyway, their prom would've been better if only they actually danced on the dance floor! Some just sat around and didn't even want to respond. I felt kinda disappointed but what to do, right?


I couldn't blame them though, the DJ wasn't playing so much interesting songs hence the no one dancing part. Thank god Fairie was there and put some good songs together, at least some people actually started dancing and that was a really good thing. The band was good too, they played some good songs and yeah. 

Brandon, Vanessa, Terry and Martin. (Band)

The slow dance part, oh don't get me started on that part. What is wrong with two friends of different sex actually dancing? Why does everyone have to make a big fuss about it? Friends can slow dance too, just so you know. Not everyone is in a relationship. 

I m not angry, just stating a fact beeteedubs.

But yeah, the dance floor was filled with girls slow dancing with each other and boys slow dancing with each other (more specifically Han and Ed) lol but yeah people danced. Some guys had the balls to actually dance with a girl. SO UH YEAH Mom kept asking me if I danced with pretty smile, she kept repeating it and for the love of everything sacred I almost cried when I said no. I did feel a tear drop when I told her he danced with this one girl

IT'S OKAY I'M OKAY WITH IT I WAS CIVIL ABOUT IT

Anywayyy~ the night ended okay, I guess. Tay said their prom was "okay" and yeah. I guess that's okay enough for me.

Prom King: Brandon Devela
Prom Queen: Mah Sei Ying
Best dressed: (male) Soon Ai (female) Sing Yee [she totally deserved it]
Best couple: Wen Mee and Yap [they really really really deserved it, they're cute together omg]

I just wanna thank Stephy, Han and Ed for helping me out with everything. And to the band who played for the night cause they were really helpful cause they thought I was "stressed".

Terry and Michelle

Han, Stephy, Flo, Z, Ed and Calvin

Graduation night.

Congratulations seniors! :)

Now that I think of it, I have more form 5 friends this year than I do in all the other years. I guess that's why I'm sadder this year than I was last year.


So uh yeah, this year I was chosen to be the student chairperson and I don't even remember why. At first, I just volunteered to help with the certificate giving and everything but for some reason I suddenly became the student chairperson. -_____- I think it's cause of the dragon lady. She always says things that manipulate me.
Anyway, the graduation night was... I don't even know how to describe it. Everything was changed last minute by that... that lady, she didn't even give out the ribbon which was supposedly the highlights of the graduation. 


Yes the "you've changed my life" ribbon. Only the board of directors were given the ribbons like seriously wtf. 
It was meant for people who made a difference to your life and all that but she kept insisting to give the ribbons only AFTER the graduation event ended. But did she give it? No, she did not and instead she went around hugging people thinking that they liked her. No one likes you, not after the whole you ruining the graduation night. Also, she kept screwing me over and telling me I don't know the procedure to the whole event. Uh hello, you should talk to the 2 year 9 Express you assigned, they were the ones who didn't arrange the line.... and you tell me that I was the one who did something wrong.

I don't hate her but seriously, why she gotta be like that? -_-

So yeah, that's what happened. I'd rather not talk about what really happened that night cause it just upsets me. Not cause that lady made everything seem bad but because I will seriously miss my seniors. Ethan and Angelina even told me not to cry cause it's not even my graduation, in my head I'm like. Screw you guys (in a non-offensive way). I mean c'mon, everyone in that room mattered alot to me.


I actually didn't cry until I saw Pretty smile and Z and the rest of the Express people and maybe some of the Science class. Mostly PS and Z. Uh yeah, that's yeah.

see. I really cried

Words I left unsaid that night.

Pretty smile, 

This seems really ridiculous right now. I really thought I was over you, that I wouldn't cry on your graduation night, that I wouldn't even feel hurt and that you leaving was nothing to me but I was wrong about everything. I wanted to say more than I did during your graduation night, to at least have one hug but I know if I did hug you I would never let you go. I knew that for sure. Slowly letting go of your hand, it felt as if someone shot my heart. It ached so much as I walked away, the tears I held back just came bursting out. The thought of never seeing your smile again, the thought of never getting to look you in the eyes and saying the right thing. I guess that's why I cried more. I just wanted you to know that I don't regret February, seeing you for the first time and meeting you because in a way, you really did change my life. I don't know how to explain it but you just did and everything I said to you in that message, I meant it all. I just wanted you to know that. I know I have to let go and forget you and one day I will but right now... I miss you I miss you I miss you, I really do. Give me time to let go and I really hope that one day, if fate allows it.. I want to see you again. Don't forget I existed..okay?

Z,

You have no idea how much it makes me feel to know that you're no longer coming around. To have none of your company every morning and every afternoon. To hear none of your voice. I wanna be honest and say that yeah there was a part of me that always hated you, not because I thought you were a bad person but because I felt intimidated. I know you already know what I mean by that. I guess I'll always feel slightly intimidated by you but always know that I love you more than I hate you and that my hate will always end up me forgiving you OH DEAR LORD WHAT AM I SAYING, I will miss you-- every bit of you (except when you're with Geek loljk......or am I) I hope you all the best in everything you do and I know we will see each other again but I just wanted you to know all this

To every other senior I've met this year,

Congratulations and I hope you all the best. I hope that one day- while I'm sitting in a coffee house or a bar or inside a shopping center, we'll see each other and say "omg how have you been?" or "hey! oh my gosh, long time no see" or something like that. What I mean is that I hope we all don't forget each other, you should all keep in touch and never forget the memories you all made. Kudos to everyone!

To every single one of you that I've wronged,

I'm sorry. Deeply I am. Sincerely I am. Always sorry and hope that one day you too can forgive me. 

Veena, I hate how much you've changed. I finally said it. I can tell that you've changed for the best but I hate how much you've changed and I want to honestly say that I've missed the old you but this doesn't mean that I hate you (maybe a little at times) but a tiny part of me will always still love you my old friend because that tiny part of me knows the real you or at least the old you . I hope you know that you're no longer a high school student, you no longer live in CHMS, you now live in the real world and the real world doesn't function and listen to what you want. You listen and function to what it wants. I just wanted to say I'm sorry for every wrong I've done and wish you all the best. Stop fighting with girls lol I get that you think they hate you and that you don't get well with them but now is the best chance for a fresh start, I think?
I don't know if that made sense, I feel like everything I wanna say is jumbled up. lol

So yeah, too much words? Oh well.

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