Fonts, y u so stubborn! ._.

oh cicak.

it's something that killing me inside and It hurts even more knowing that i can never tell you

Happy CICAK day, teachers! 

Thank you for the hard work. Thank you for putting up with all of us and for continuing to do so, we are forever grateful even if you guys are always mean and torturing us. Thank you so much. (:


I'm so exhausted! ._. I'm like, 'shit! should I blog?' Today was an awfully long day full of fun, stress and drama. Oh drama. Anyway, before that. As you know today was the performance thing we had for the teachers. 


I arrived at school around at 6.45am cause mom and I were searching for a dress to wear. ._. took ages to find one that made me look like a teacher. I felt so old just by wearing it. I'm like FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. When I arrived at school, the first thing I did was discreetly walk the hallway cause I hate it when people see me wear a dress and go 'OH.MY.GOD! is that VIEL!?' ._. it's annoying! I know, I suck wearing dress. thank you for clarifying bitch.


I stood at the door and peaked just so I can find X and ended up going inside, first thing I head was 'WOW, VIEL look like teacher!' that was from Jonathan and then EK was like '*stares* you look like you're going to a wedding. *slyly smiles*' Pft, then we waited for the others to come. 


*skips here cause I don't remember, :p*


We headed for canteen after informing teacher Matthew about marking us present for his class, I had to leave EK. ): I am utterly sad that I didn't get to talk to him for a long time today, I sat with him by the way. Yesterday, ehehehehe. :3 then this morning he borrowed my phone for some reason, he's always doing that. 


Then we all met up there, Jackie and the rest of the gang came. You guys looked like waiters and waitresses. Then we took photos and decided we wanted to practice. { I'm cutting some stories, sorry! Go to Jackie's wordpress for more summarized story. } Then we improved our dance, just needed to shake a lil' more. (: After improving our dance, we dispersed and some went to places. I and some of the others went to the canteen to wait for time to pass but got bored after an hour or so and went in to watch the whole performance. :3 


There were really cool moments while the program was on-going. The other performances were amazing, some were so cute and some were just plain funny. { mostly H shaking his ass and trying to belly dance. } oh, how I will not forget. EHEKX. ._. wtf? Then we had our performance, it was okie okie lah, we had mistakes but people barely noticed! puh-lease, only M was so fucking retarded to say 'boo' but people still said 'woo'. SUCK THAT! ._. I seriously am hating on him for doing that, it made the group feel down and embarrassed. ): 


Don't listen to what anyone says, YOU GUYS DID AMAZING! <3 Okie? Jackie did an amazing job and we had fun, met new friends and made good memories.


After that, yeah we { me, S and X } went back to class cause S kept forcing me to give kisses { the chocolates! } to EK. <3  I didn't dare to give it to him. ): I was so paiseh okay! And it's not like there's a possibility for us.

Mixed photos. (:

 Wen Mee and Me!

 Regina and Me!

 Em Shams, Steph, Me and xinZaii

 Vee

 Before performance. (:

 Backstage, GT. 

 Steph and miss-sexy-hair Zanna

 you can only guess who this sexy person is. :3

 D for DONUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT not deepshit. <3

 A trying on my shoes. (:  such small feet. 

 Ugly ugly, guly. ._. 

 CinderVIELA wizzah bling bling!

 one blind libra

then a zimah comes along with strength to carry on~ (8)

or you want rap? :p

 the world is bigger than you and me, but no matter whut people gonna say

"Em Shams, Em Shams, whatchu gonna do? whatchu gonna do if she comes for you!"

 NICO's table! :o 

{bottom and top photo}

Jackie! <3 Awesome and amazing. We all love you just the way you are Jackie and no matter what people say about you, to us, you're always gonna be Jackie! 

After the whole thing in school mom, tcher Aileen, tcher Jane and I went to mall cause they wanted to hang out. ._. I was so fucking tired and she wanted me to go to mall with them, I was still wearing the dress and the shoes. I felt so uncomfortable! :o I was like 'shit, shit, shit' and not to mention people kept staring at me. They were probably wondering whether I was the daughter or sister or what. ._. OHMG! I no like that. 

We walked around, window shopped and planned what mom and I are gonna be buying the next time we come back to mall. I found great cardigans in iTop, pants at Hotwinds and Bingo, shirts at Giordano. I've also ordered from Natasha. <3 AMEN! I've turned gay I tell you. ._.

 Met Karyn at Best Eastern, doesn't she look sexy? :o 

Happy Belated by the way, I love you Karyn! <3

 Mom trying out shades. she kept moving and she didn't know I was taking the photos. :3

We ate at Sweet Recipe at 4PM. thank god cause I didn't eat lunch yet. ): I was so hungry. Nigel and X's birthday is on Saturday! I'm so excited. 

._. addicted to this emoticon. 

I'm done by the way. I'm sure you're satisfied with this post right? (: Thanks for reading! And to the glee peeps, you guys did great again.

I can't let one moment with you pass by, cause you're only one and someday, you will be we. Someday's now.

vee

chocolates

Sorry Jackie! ): Tried out best but let's try again tomorrow lah.
Let's shake, hahaha. (: Jangan stress about what people say.

off. update toms.


Had rehearsals today cause I didn't come yesterday so we had to do one today. I'm really sorry though. Rehearsals were alright though Jackie says the teacher said it was 'uneat'? I don't think there's even such a word! ._. my god. 


Anyway, I stayed back for tuition with Dwight, I'm so tired I actually want to just die. ._. it's a good day, slightly. It was tito's (Dwight's dad, Teacher Gladys husband) birthday, so yeah, she fed me lots. :p took the things off my mind. <3 Food is my medicine. SO YUH.


I don't remember much so sorry. :p 

Aiman! <3 We sang him Beautiful girls and he kept clapping and smiling. It was so cute. (: It was when we went to Vans house before rehearsal. :3 SAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG!


vee.
2 days till X's birthday! (:

when the stars go blue

I like watching you be you.

I overslept. ._. I fucking overslept. It's probably I slept at 2am, I couldn't sleep even though I was already sleepy. I kept crying and I had to get up countless times. Before anything, I'd like to say; 

I'm so so so sorry Jackie! 
if I've cause you any trouble today.( though no difference if I go or don't go )

I am, really. I must've made you stress. ): I didn't mean to. Yuh, that's that and now I'm out of things to say cause I haven't really done anything interesting today. I've got tuition later with Dwight at 6.30 till 8.30. Then there's school tomorrow, shiteh. I mean I want to go to school tomorrow but it's Wednesday, you can never know what happens on a Wednesday! D:

We use to talk alot, all the time, remember? Talking about how life sucks and how we're always gonna keep our friendship strong? Now we're like complete strangers again, we both ignore each other and we don't even smile at each other anymore. 

Truth is, I miss you, i mean as a friend.

BUT I dont' know why we stopped talking, if it's about the smoking thing. I'm sorry I overreacted. ): I know I don't have the right to tell you what to do or what you can do with your life. I knew you like smoking before but I don't like knowing it. I don't like knowing that my friend, one that I wanted to trust, is killing himself with a stick. A stupid stick. I'm sorry but I've had enough experience of my friends dying cause of that and booze. For whatever reason, I still don't accept that you smoke and I would like to keep it as if you never smoke. It hurts when you're telling me, it's like you're announcing "hey viel, I'm killing myself! isn't that cool!?" It's not funny, if it's about your family, then talk to me. talk to me like we just met today or whenever.

this is stupid, I don't know why I'm doing it. I just saw you today and I was like... looked like he was miserable, i tried smiling but you just kept shooting daggers with your eyes. what's that about?

Anyway, my conclusion for this whatever is... I'm sorry if i did something wrong to ruin what friendship we had. I'm sorry for trying to control you but bare in mind, I'm not asking for forgiveness, I'm not saying sorry that I told you I hate you for smoking. 

I forgive you. Cause that's what god would want me to do and that's what I need to do. I forgive you for anything but In my opinion, that you wouldn't care about... smoking isn't good and i wish you'd stop. 

I miss you. But I'm not asking for us to be friends if you don't want to be anymore. And you also have to say you're sorry. Cause I said so.

What? I couldn't help it, I had to do it. I don't like fighting with my friends and I don't like it when I don't talk to them. I'm like that, stupid right? I don't take sides, I don't like making my friends sad and I always always admit my wrong doings but if it wasn't my fault, well bitch suck it.

I'm pretty much done for now. I'll blog if I got something.

my life would suck, without you and when the stars go blue and I'm all alone, you're the one I wanna be with.

fcker.

vee.

love is pain

I want to spend every moment with you.

Today was the longest day I've had so far, Physical Education wasn't bad, Nancy was in the mood which was good cause she didn't torture us into running! Then after that we had English which wasn't so bad cause it was only one period, he didn't let us do the presentation today cause we were wearing P.E t-shits. (:


We had only one period of Bahasa Melayu and the other period we went to the library, also had chinese period there so in total it was two periods which was awesome cause we didn't have to do anything but sit around and talk. :p Priya was the substitute though which was creepy. Then that's when we vained { me, tien, steph, wui min, irene and sin yi } we raped Azzam's laptop while he was at IRK. :3

The rest of the class wasn't that bad either, time flew fast. I like afternoon classes sometimes cause I get to see someone and someone and someone. Get what I mean? Of course you don't. :p After school, we had practice for the teachers day. It was short cause we started at 3pm but it was fun, really it was. My voice feels like cracking now, I think I shouted to much. There's rehearsal tomorrow, omg, at 9am and I'm so lazy to wake up. 


Also, today, we { me, tien, steph and xin jie }were talking to k about him changing alot. We didn't mean for it to be so serious for him but I think he did take it quite seriously. I texted him. "you're to worried about what we said. i hope you wouldn't. We didn't mean that the change you're becoming is bad but you can't change as in really into a new person. We're your friends and we love the k you are. (: and no matter what we're still gonna be your friend, just don't change alot or be gangsta. :b... etc."  that message was so damn long. :o

Uh, also today,  I found out something about M. It seems like M has a thing for K. I just think so, cause M has that look that tells me but I don't know. I'm never sure. I'd post the thing X said about LY but she might go ninja on me and kill me which is not a good thing at all. :p She said the cutest thing about him, he-he-he. Also found that Z no like Y. Well, who doesn't? I mean sometimes I don't like Y cause I don't know. :p 


Anyway, let's stop here. I don't remember the whole thing about today, I'm exhausted! Pictures ahead, mkay? (:  (NOT ACCORDINGLY) 

My wallpaper for 3 hours until my dad noticed it. 

During practice. (:

Down there, those are vain people. :p 

wui min, steph, irene, sin yi, tien and me. Oh, one photo with Alai. <3

How'd this get here? :o 

lol, mom taking photo of the dressed candy. 

<3

during class in library. everyone is in one group. ._.

Lynne helping us take the photo.

that's that. fuck you. (: thanks for reading and or looking at the photos. <3

don't be stupid, I like you for who you are and who you're gonna be but I'm worried, someone will get to you before me. I just wish you'd notice, I care.

vee